To Rachel Henderson,
You seem to be very bitter with God, kindly seek help, at this rate you may go berserk. God remains God no matter the circumstance we face. Long life without God in this world does not mean happiness at all. Jesus the son and only begotten son lived a very short life on earth, went through a very painfully death yet He is the son of God with all those powers bestowed in him. There is a purpose for everything that happens in our lives.
Over and above seek understanding and knowledge from the Lord. May God remember you.
Carren.