astrid

Please respond to my complaint in way of advice, the only other thing I can add--- the dear Lord Jesus is endlessly good, loving, merciful, faithful protecting and encouraging to me He showers me with kindness and blessings everyday, but I still feel like I'm not - I don't know how to say it, wavering between lukewarmness and trying real hard some of the time but usually falling right back into old habits please help me understand where I go wrong, thank you

My inconsistencies( I call them those flies in the ointment) very much discourage me. I'm forgetful, often suddenly casual, chronic insomniac who does everything haphazardly and whenever whenever, losing things all the time, forgetting things a lot of time,and a whole lot more flakiness. I feel so overwhelmed, the cares of this life seem endless and the things of God get thrown in the gaps of moments here and there, and often when I finally go on a rampage of doing all I can to show someone the gospel in every which way, in the end, 90% of my sudden big effort just has no feedback. I get no response, they don't - whatever , I see no actual results, if at all. Been puffing a long like this for years now, gonna turn 70 this summer and wish I could become someone effective for the Lord before my life ends, please pray I become somehow what the Lord wants me to be. Thank you🌹