"7 But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8 What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish...." (Philippians 3:7-8)
I strayed from God despite his many goads. I was the mule braying, I was the prodigal son, I was the “wretch” in Amazing Grace. I married an atheist who scoffed at God, and soon I was scoffing along with her. We boasted of our material successes and our truthfulness.
Then Jesus broke us up; she wanted another lover and I pushed her over the coffee table landing on her with my hands on her throat. I spent two weeks in jail on a suicide watch, freezing hours on end in my little suicide jacket. I was so despondent. I prayed to God, wondering whether he would reply. He did. Of course he did. I prayed for warmth; he warmed me. I prayed for his blessing; he happily complied. I realized how, all these years, how much he wanted me to come back to him.
I lost my wife, my house, my possessions. But what I gained was a renewed relationship with God. Out of my demise, he brought me new wealth — an everlasting relationship with God.